Monday, October 29, 2012

When a teenager fell in love with a hindu nun...

It was a normal morning….just like any other day…just in the second period..our bindiyaa maam, announced to us…that some ppl from the hare rama krishna mission were visiting our school. And soon they will come to the class. It was of no consequence to me….
There she entered…along with her associates…..i was just too spell bound….perhaps as much as mira was enamoured by Krishna..or how majnu went dizzy seeing laila for the first time. She was an amazing beautiful American sadhvi…from the kare Krishna mission…and was part of the group that visited our school. It was love-infatuation-madness at first sight. Prompted me to shift from the last bench to the first bench. While I was always curious of god, atma, life…and many a time had posed questions to many….here, I was more than just interested in answers….i posed my most idiotic questions and queries…and were answered very nicely by the sadhvi..just when they were leaving, I went and asked for their address….their numbers..and all….for, I was interested in meeting them) her_ once again….

It became a weekly routine…I kept going to the place where she hd halted…a senior hare Krishna mission chair person….and kept finding reasons to meet her see her….

Was having a turbulence in my mind…coz I was just pretending that im attracked to the mission, but realty was I was jus attracted to her….

I attended bhajans, prayers, also went with her to some other schools…and I was eing introduce as a curious kid….who had fallen in love with hare Krishna. But me was doing hare radha hare radha….in my mind….

The madness knew no bounds when I started sporting a hare Krishna style tikka..on my forehead…when I was out of school…I bought a lot of books from her…as if I was deeply  interested…and I was also talking of love of Krishna n Radha…and was making imaginary castles wen I knew that radha was much elder to Krishna in terms of age..and then, thoght if krishna and radha can be one, why not i. my love is also pure, mad, divine…and much more…

My parents too were flummoxed with my sudden interest in hare Krishna….my tilak, my collection of books, which I never read….etc etc…..but they were maybe too sure of my idiosyncracies- one madness at a time….and hence, they dint bother much….evening they knew I was going to the hare Krishna temple….so they never even asked…as it had become routine…for me..

The sadhvi, by the way, never ever gauged my intentions, why im following her, why  so much communicating with her…for her I was just a kid….not even passed 11th std…and who maybe, she treated as a baccha. But then, like Malena..the movie….where a small kid was mad after a woman twice her age….i was  reassuring myself all the time…and visualizing a lot of things…ahead. Of getting married to her….of how our pooja room I would be…and how she would look as my wife…..

Just one of those usual Sundays where I were to attend a prayer meet in the evning…and I went to the centre…..shockingly this American sadhvi wasn’t around. I was restless….i went up to the senior mataji and asked her point blank…..mataji, where is…..xyz….why is she not around. Is she ok….is she around…a flurry of questions…..
I was sweating…so much that it rubbed off my hare Krishna stlle tilak…..

Mataji, very nonchalantly replied…beta…she had come on tousits visa..and she just left for Bombay last night…she has a flight to catch back to LA.

I was shocked. Dumbstruck. Completely blank in my mind.

Couldn’t sleep whole nite.

Constantly….her images kept running in my mind…..

The next day, I visited the temple…and just told god….look god, I love her a lot….if u can bring her back to me, I will then only step into ur temple once again.

God might have smiled n said- grow up u idiot….this is ur 12th true love ……

So….go, find ur 13th.

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